
I knew from the first time I heard your
heartbeat that you would be mine and I would be your last.
So, at the end of the day, I’m not interested in being your first or one of the many that came after.
Because everytime I look in your eyes,every time I catch you starting at me, everytime I’m out of breath at the thought of you, every time you stutter a little as you struggle to say what you think is the right thing (not knowing that everything said in your voice is the right thing) I know that you’re my best, I’m your best, you’re my last, I’m your last.
And now, because I’ve shared my deepest fears and my most intricate thoughts with you, I forget that you can’t actually read my mind.
And in that moment, when I need you to know what I’m thinking the most, when I need you to know how much I need you, instead of telling you… I get angry at you for not knowing what i so desperately need you to know.
But I know it’s alright because you are you and I am me and we are we and we are infinite.
**Extract from my shortest love letter to you because you are the simplest and most complex poem ever written.
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For some people, especially those with vivid imaginations, it is difficult to express themselves conventionally. There’s simply too much to say, too many ways in which to describe a single item, too many colors, too many sounds. For those people, there is poetry. | Born, raised and living in Africa. | Art lover (In all it's forms) | Hopeless romantic. | Believes in making the world a better place; one thought, one word, one action at a time.
Ndapewoshali is an accountant and Namibian labour law specialist by profession, a self-taught graphic designer and avid community activist. She uses writing to tackle (sometimes uncomfortable) social issues with the hope of transforming the Namibian and the global community’s mindset on the current status quo. Ndapewoshali believes that love, as a verb (through kindness, patience, common understanding and tolerance), consistent education and reform, are the answers for all social, economic and political ills. She is also a strong advocate for mental health awareness and the importance of creating a safe environment in which mental health is prioritized and mental illness is destigmatized. Ndapewoshali is an art-loving (in all its forms), hopeless romantic who believes in making the world a better place; one thought, one word, one action at a time.
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